For the past two months Joel has been having dizzy spells that are progressively getting worse. When they first started he chalked it up to trying to be more open and thus the mental and emotional strain was to blame. But things continued to get worse. The dizzy spells lasted longer and came more frequently. Then to add to it his nosebleeds started coming more frequently as well. We didn't know if the two were related but the combination was enough to convince Joel that he should probably schedule a visit to the Dr.
We saw a general family practitioner two weeks ago and he ordered blood work. The blood work didn't show much other than Joel had high cholesterol and triglycerides. As much as it wasn't fun to find that out, Joel pretty much already knew that. So with normal enough results and nothing that would indicate dizzy spells the Dr proceeded to order another test. Joel had an MRI done on Tuesday October 1. I usually go to the appointments with him but this time he went while I stayed home with Hailey. He came back and although we don't know how bad it is, the impression he got was that the results weren't good. Part way through the MRI, the technician called for the specialist to come in and read the results as they were happening. Even though he had read through a good part of it, they still couldn't tell Joel much other than that our Dr would contact us to let us know the results.
So here we are. Waiting again. In limbo not knowing if things are good or bad or terrible horrible no good very bad days ahead. Joel is more worried than he is letting on. Oddly enough I'm not super worried. I figure that things will work out the way they need to. I'm usually ubber worried about our finances, but that as well, I know will be taken care of. We're doing the best we can.
So, the funny part in all of this. As our finances and bills have gotten tighter, we find ourselves still being more charitable. There are plenty of homeless people on the street. We won't give money but we often have snacks of some kinds in our bag or car. Even though we shouldn't be able to afford it, we still invite others over for dinner because they have even less than us and a good night of company is worth the small price to "add a little more water to the soup" (Newsies). We figure that the more we give the more we'll be taken care of. My Aunt and her family moved to NC and instead of taking their furniture they just gave it away. Dana brought us back a couple bookcases, a dresser and a few other random things that we were patiently saving our pennies for. Now we have more pennies to share. So, I'm not worried. Things will work out. Plus it really doesn't do much good to worry.
I have watched as our friend, Justin Hanks, has posted humorous thoughts as he goes through chemo for his cancer. What better example to have during hard times. Life is hard but Joel and I still find things to laugh about and ways to have fun together. One way that Joel and I are having fun is through games. You would think with only two people we are limited on certain games, like Settlers of Catan. BUT! I asked him one night if he'd play with me and we'd rotate on being the third player. He suggested instead that we each play two players. We didn't know how well it would work, but it actually works quite well! It makes it more complicated because you're playing against yourself as well as another person. We've enjoyed the game but I think he's a little burnt out. It just goes to show that we can always find a way to make things work, life, games, medical maladies... They're all just one type of board game or another.
On the positive side. Hailey is sleeping through the night, usually 10-12 hours. She has dropped multiple midsized naps for a cat nap in the morning and a 3 hours nap in the afternoon. She's learning to talk aka babble/coo. She's learning to grab and pull on her toys and bat at the ones that hang from her dome mat. She enjoys playing in the bath. She'd rather stand than sit. She still spits up with a bulls eye aim. And she loves to smile, especially in the mirror. That was a new development. Mirrors! Who knew! She reminds me each day that is really is the simple things that are important.
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